1 year today..

1 year today my Nanny passed away at 1:30pm. I still don't understand it all. I mean my Nanny was suppose to live forever, to outlast me. Nanny and I used to talk every Sunday night ever since I moved away. It was a date. I could talk to Nanny about anything and everything, things I didn't talk to my sisters, my mother or my friends about. It was just so easy to talk to Nanny. I still go to pick up the phone some Sundays then realize that she's not there anymore. It never fails, every Sunday I think of her. I haven't fully dealt with her death yet, I still can't watch our wedding video as Nanny is on it. I've just begun to be able to look at our wedding pictures again. But I still cry. A couple of weeks after our wedding, Nanny went into the hospital and was only out for a week before she went back in again at Christmas. Funny, I made her scrapbook of our wedding pictures for a Christmas gift. I wasn't able to make it home and kept after mom to bring the gift to the hospital so that Nanny could see it. This was before she had gotten very ill and we had no thoughts of her passing. There was just something itching at me that Nanny had to see this scrapbook and soon. Jenni showed it to her Christmas Day and Nanny got very ill Boxing Day. So she did get to see it before she passed. I thank god for that. I wish so much that she could still be around, there are so many things I would like to tell her.

Here are some pictures of Nanny on my wedding day - September 24, 2005.

I love and Miss you Nanny - forever and ever........